This last year has been the most painful and joyful year of my life. I found out I was pregnant and I thank God for the beauty that He has brought into the world!! Because I didn’t know her father well enough to feel safe letting him know my real decision, I told him what he wanted to hear and decided to do an adoption.
I am thankful for this love that God has given me that I have never experienced. I have never loved anyone the way I love my daughter. I’m heart-broken that I don’t see her everyday, but I am confident that she is being taken care of and loved. The fact that I know she is still a part of my life and we get to know each other overwhelms me with joy!! Her adoptive parents have been very supportive thru the entire pregnancy. The adoptive mom was my birth coach, she cut the embilical cord. We have a strong bond, the three of us. The adoptive dad was willing to have his family go on this journey even without certaintly of the outcome. I was able to get to know them very well and knew how my baby was going to be taken care of by watching them interact with their two year old boy. Their children have the same birthday! Two years apart.
What I am most thankful for is that God got my attention thru this, I want nothing more than to see even a glimpse of Him everyday. That is what will keep me going. This book has helped me understand how God wants us to live. I look forward with joy knowing that it won’t be easy, but that’s what makes it worth while. I will cherish every minute I am able to be with my daughter!
By: Victoria Babashov